Sometimes I feel as though I need a map for my life; not necessarily directions, just a map would be nice.

I’ve never been the super spontaneous type.  Sure I like to take “spontaneous” day trips….and by spontaneous, I mean day trips I mentally planned a month in advance.  I know it makes me boring, but that’s ok with me.

I love calendars, I love planning ahead, I adore schedules of all kinds.  My friends, I believe I suffer from obsessive planner syndrome.

OPS has its advantages.  For instance, my husband can ask me at any point in time what we doing exactly 3.2 months from today, and I know the answer.  I have a ridiculously amazing internal memory, which allows me to keep dates and appointments in my head at all times.  I might not remember your name after meeting you twice, but I do remember that doctor’s appointment for August 10th at 9:45am.

Just like anything else with advantages, OPS has disadvantages as well, the biggest one simply being- I think too much.  I have faced a lot of decisions lately, both minor and major, that have literally consumed my mind for the past month.  My brain keeps asking, “What if this happens?……then what??”  I create crazy hypothetical situations that might possibly someday happen to me three years down the road.  Who on earth thinks that far ahead?  People with OPS do.  And it sucks.

We aren’t supposed to have a map for our life, that’s what makes it life.  It’s unpredictable and full of surprises, both good and bad.  Just when I think I have things figured out, curve balls are thrown at me from every direction.

But when I stop to think about it, there’s peace in the unknown.  I don’t need to know everything; I don’t need to have it all figured out.  I just need to breathe, live, and trust that God’s plan is the best plan.

Ultimately, He is the greatest planner of all.